Wow. It's been over a year since I've scribbled. Well, consistency has never been my strong suit. Which actually brings me to the point of this particular installment. Here's a confession that may alarm some folks (by "some folks" I mean anyone who hasn't spent more than five minutes with me):
I'm a free spirit.
Unconstrained by convention, a rolling stone, a gypsy, a nomad, whatever you want to call it. And here's the next shocking bit of info: I'm actually okay with that. In fact, I'd have it no other way.
It isn't because I think this is the role I should play as an artist (or a Libra). It isn't a cop out on being a responsible adult with a college degree and a mortgage and a car and a cat (although I'd LOVE to have a cat).
This is who I am, deep in my bones, and now at 30 years old I'm officially over having to console others who may be uncomfortable this fact. All of my worldly possessions can be neatly packed (well, maybe not neatly) into two suitcases, a carry on and a couple of guitar cases, which actually makes moving from country to country and continent to continent a lot less stressful than one might imagine. I think that's pretty awesome.
The truth of the matter is, I'm a happy soul. My happiness is not contingent on my possessions, my environment, my career, my finances or even my relationship. It comes from an innate awareness that NOW is all there is. All we have is this moment and in this moment, NOTHING is wrong. I am exactly where I am supposed to be. YOU are exactly where you are supposed to be. There is no such thing as being lost. Don't be discouraged if you think you're losing your way. Take a breath and embark upon a new path. It's about the journey, my friends!
This blog is as much an affirmation for me as it is for anyone else reading this who may feel judged or criticized by friends and family simply because of who they are at their very core. It's okay to be misunderstood. It's okay to live your life in your own way, on your own terms, in your own time. It's okay to fall flat on your face. Five times. You will always get back up and you will be stronger for it. Life is for living.
Be good, be light, be LOVE!
xox
Morning of my 30th birthday in Denizli, Turkey. Wonder where I'll be next year? :)

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